Day 908: The 20th of January

Was at a sleepover last night.

It’s been a very long time since I last had one of them. It was nice, actually. Played around with some VR, played some other games, ate a nice lunch today. Still, nice to be back in my own room, in the peace that only comes from no human contact.

Tomorrow I shall be starting the final slog. 3 days to revise for employment from scratch, with no notes written up. In other words, cutting it very fine. Would like to have my notes written up by the end of tomorrow, to give me a solid two days to revise them. Not sure how much I need though, so it is up in the air.

Anyway, I should probably go to bed regardless. Get up tomorrow and panic then.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.


Day 906: The 18th of January

Today was a hard day for revision.

It was mainly down to the exceptionally long section that is financial provisions in the event of marriage breakdown, which takes up around 15 pages of notes and is pretty much full of cases. It is just a painful section to drag yourself through, trying desperately to get all the cases into my brain. I still am going to go through it again before I sleep to try and get it in.

At the very least, I have all of the sections before that section down, and the only section afterwards is one that I am not going to go into detail on, because it normally only comes up as one possible problem question. Also because that is another insanely long section with far too many cases and statute sections for me to deal with. I have the gist down, just in case I need to blag some parts of it.

Financial provisions is such a long and important section that I don’t feel like I can go into the exam without it. It could come up in a problem question about divorce, which is the sort of question I want to answer, or it could come up in a different section. It is just an important area that other parts tie into.

Anyway, I shan’t keep rambling now. By this time tomorrow I will have got this exam out of the way and I shall be stressing about the final exam next Wednesday. Until then, I must simply focus my energy on getting this final section done.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

Day 905: The 17th of January

One exam down!

I actually left that exam feeling really confident in my efforts, which makes me feel like I probably did not do anywhere near as well as I believe. I think I at least passed reasonably well. And I used up basically the whole 2 hours on planning and writing my answers, with very little time just twiddling my thumbs at the end, so that makes me feel good.

As it stand though, I can’t slow down the pace now. I have tomorrow only to revise for my family law exam now. That means all day tomorrow I shall be working hard on getting all of the module into my head. Hopefully it will go fairly smoothly, especially since I have already gone through almost half already. But it will probably still take a fair length of time.

Honestly, I think I will probably be able to concentrate more on family now that company is out of the way. And after Friday it will all come down to my preparation for next Wednesday and my final exam in employment.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

Day 904: The 16th of January

Well, after a hard day of revising the second half of company law, I guess I am almost ready.

I have been going over cases and statute sections in my head for a little while now, while winding down for the night. I will probably go over some of the more tricky sections at least once more before I sleep. Then tomorrow in the lead up to the exam I will go through the whole module and make sure I have pretty much everything important down.

Honestly, I could definitely be feeling worse about this exam. I am pretty sure I have a lot of my knowledge safely tucked away in my memory. My biggest worry is actually trying to determine what the questions are about and what sort of things my examiner will actually be looking for, since company law questions can be fairly opaque. Even some of the past papers have questions which take me a good little while to determine what I need to actually answer the question.

Still, my assumption is that if I have knowledge of basically the whole syllabus I should be able to answer any problem question and give at least a relatively competent stab at any essay question. If I had more time I would have read more articles and got my critical analysis up to speed, but as it is I just have to go with my current knowledge.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

Day 903: The 15th of January

I spent a fair while today revising family law.

I got a good chunk of the way into it, before I decided to switch to company law. As it is, I have a lot of company to get through tomorrow. I think I can probably get it done though, if I can focus my mind on the task at hand. That means no distractions, just working through page after page until I have it all in my memory.

At least I have almost half of my notes already stored safely away in my head. I shall brush up on them again before I do the second half of the module, meaning I will probably go through them once more tonight and then tomorrow morning. That will allow me all day to focus on the other 15 or so pages of revision. I have all day to get it done, so it should be fine. Especially with the added pressure, my mind should focus down onto the task at hand.

Anyway, I am going off to bed now, with my notes. Going to watch a video or two, then do a runthrough and then probably go to sleep. Got to get up at a reasonable time tomorrow if I want to get this work all done.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

Day 902: The 14th of January

Today I worked hard, as expected.

Got all of my family law written up and ready for the intense revision that I have planning. It is going to be heavy stuff, getting that all into my brain. But it has to be done.

As it is, I am fairly nervous about going into this week without all of my company law memorised. I shall just have to put that out of my mind for now and hope that Tuesday will be enough to finish off the remaining half of company law. It should be fine, in theory.

Still, I am pleased that I was able to work flat out for a few hours, getting all of my family law written up with a few breaks in between. Now that the hard part is done, we get onto the fun part, of venturing around the house, memorising pages and pages of text to ensure that I can answer any question that they throw at me. I am particularly pleased that I was able to work despite there being some dramatic discussions going on between the group I am a part of on Snapchat. It shows that I can still focus hard when I need to.

I should probably print out my family law tonight, to give me a head start on tomorrow. After all, I will hopefully be memorising at least half of the module and it would be good if I could get more done. I shall do that after I publish this post.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

Day 901: The 13th of January

I feel like my energy for working ebbs and flows.

I end up having one day where I work a ton and burn out and then one day when I do very little work. Sort of a cycling pattern. Of course, even on the days where I work a lot I usually don’t get too much done.

Today was one of those days when not much gets done. I started preparing my family law revision and have two more sections to cover before I can start using it. They are the biggest sections of the module though, so it might take most of tomorrow to get them written up into note form. Still, at least after that I will be able to revise from them.

If I can get that done I will feel far more confident in starting to polish up my company law revision for my Wednesday exam. I would certainly like to ensure I can give each exam the proper amount of time dedicated to it, to ensure the best chance of success.

Anyway, right now I do have a minor headache, so I am probably going to go to bed. It is a bit earlier than usual, but at least I might wake up earlier tomorrow and get this work done. Exam time is all crunch time after all.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

Day 900: The 12th of January

It is a big milestone today, eh?

Still, it couldn’t have come at a worse time. Middle of exam season, really? But regardless, I shall give you the low down.

Finally managed to sort out my thoughts regarding company law and have printed out my revision notes now. That means I can get down to the memorisation of cases and statutes and be completely prepared for my exam. However, I also have to get my family law revision prepared, so I shall probably be starting that on the weekend.

All in all, it is a very busy time of year for me. After January it calms down for a little while and we just meander through semester 2, but then it will all ramp up again as we approach my final exams and coursework. The only thing I can really do is attempt to prepare and understand the topics earlier to take some of the pressure off.

Still, three exams coming up in the next two weeks. Two next week and one the following week. After those are done I can start thinking about life again.

So, since it is a relatively big post, I guess I should talk about something other than my day today. Otherwise I will feel bad.

Over the past couple of months, I have been thinking a lot about actually trying to talk to a girl more and see if we can meet up at some point, as I do find her pretty attractive from our interactions in the past. Of course, coming from a 21 year old virgin, I could probably find any girl who talked to me for more than a minute attractive, but that is an aside. Assuming this isn’t merely the placebo effect of a long period of loneliness, I would like to hang out with her more.

And this is something that I, as the stupid person that I am, have brought up to some other people a few times. Mainly my closest friends, but also when I am drunk I do tend to spill a lot of personal information about myself. So there is that. This makes my inevitable failure to get anywhere all the more painful as people are expecting me to be trying to hang out with her more.

I was talking to this girl over Facebook messenger every now and then, just the usual conversations about university and whatnot. Still, I like to have time to think about my replies and I don’t want to just message out of the blue, so I have not sent anything in a while.

For all I know, in the current climate of the world, I am being a terrible person. Maybe she just wants a friend and I am doing the creepy male thing of always trying to start a romantic relationship with girls. But, I feel like I have to try my luck, because I honestly find her really interesting and I would be happy just being friends, since she appears to like my sense of humour.

So, despite being told that I am probably not her type by people over New Years, I am going to hopefully invite her to hang out when the rest of us go out over the Easter break. And hopefully I don’t act like an idiot. To be honest, once I get that far I have no idea what I would do from there. Probably let any chance that I hypothetically have slip away, as I have in the past. Because that is life when you have severe social anxiety! Hooray!

So, I hope that was a little bit more positive than my usual melodramatic howling about how I am so alone. To be honest, it is hard for me to stop myself from asking the usual questions, about why anyone would be attracted to someone like me. The very idea of getting my hopes up about possibly meeting someone who likes me actually makes me feel guilty, as if I don’t deserve that sort of happiness.

I guess it all comes back to that age old worry. If you are forward and actually try to attract a girl who turns you down, then you have reinforced that stereotype that all men just want to get with women, rather than just be friends. If you aren’t forward, and hope that they come to you, you end up with nothing. Or you end up turning down a couple of girls in secondary school and feeling like a dick for a long period of time.

That’s just some of my thoughts and feelings as I go into the 900s of my blog posts. This is the first time in a long time that I have been this blunt and honest too. But if I don’t let these feelings out somewhere then they will eat me up inside forever. And I can’t just talk to my friends about them because they will think I am vying for their attention. So this blog will have to do.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.


Day 899: The 11th of January

Well, a mixture of laziness and my brain just not wanting to have anything to do with me today, I didn’t get as much done as I wanted.

What I did get done was worry and not actually help myself get closer to passing this exam. That is something I shall have to change.

It all started when I woke up late. My morale gets pretty low when I wake up and it is already midday and it is doubly bad when I still feel tired. All it does it make me dread getting up and actually getting work done.

Couple that with Jake asking me if I wanted to take the day off and game instead of revise and you have a very tempting recipe for disaster.

Essentially, I get so weighed down in the massive amount I have to take in that I end up not starting, even though working at it a little bit at a time would get it done. I feel this is a common problem, not one personal to me, but it is still a curse that we have to deal with to get work done.

So here is my step by step plan for tomorrow. Wake up, start revising shareholder protection. Do some reading of cases and articles around shareholder protection until I actually understand it all. Then, go back and do a bit of article reading on director’s duties, if need be. After that I will probably print off the revision guide, unless the article that my lecturer wanted us to read turns out to be highly useful, in which case I will probably write some notes into my guide.

After I print out the revision notes it comes down to the most important part. Getting it into my brain. I can do that so much easier from a paper guide than from a screen. But that will probably take at least a day of slowly working through it. The final guide will probably be 30 pages or so, but that shouldn’t be so bad. I practically have the first 10 memorised so far. Just need to polish it up.

So yeah, I am probably fucked. Need to start prepping my notes for family law too, since that exam is two days after company. Then the four days after that will be used to prep for employment. Terrifying.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.