Day 461: The 30th of October

This is just going to be a short post. Everything is a bit messed up at this time.

So, I am writing this from my Kindle, since my computer is currently out of action. This leaves me in a bad predicament for the rest of this week. University work still needs to get done, after all.

Let’s just say that I hope my laptop can get fixed. Otherwise this week is going to be even worse for my life. Have a good Halloween everyone.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

Day 460: The 29th of October

Today was a lot of time spent in the car. It was a fairly interesting day though.

 

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It was my first time seeing a fireworks show for a few years now. It was pretty good, too.

Honestly, I am still so tired from yesterday. Didn’t get much of a lie in today, due to having to go and see my grandmother before we went to the fireworks show. That was a depressing time, all in all. She wasn’t in a particularly cheery mood, which no doubt comes from her age and ill health.

I really just want to get into bed though, so I shan’t be talking at length. Instead, I will just bid you all a good Sunday and speak more tomorrow night. Fare thee well, travellers.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

Day 459: The 28th of October

October is drawing swiftly to an end. And my sanity along with it. Fridays are so very painful.

 

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My face ends up pretty much stuck in this expression all day on Fridays. Too little sleep to care.

So I have been up since 4 AM, when I had breakfast and a mocha to try and energise myself for the day. It didn’t really work, I ended up going back and lying in bed for the next 20 minutes before I had to start getting washed for university.

Leaving at 6 AM is still nice though. Not in terms of sleep, I still feel tired as all hell, but at least you can look up and see the stars, with no light pollution in the way. The air is chill and utterly silent apart from you and you finally feel like you have true solitude. It is a nice contrast to the rest of the day.

The train was packed today, due to a shortage of carriages on it, which bothered all the commuters to no end. Luckily I still got a seat, so it wasn’t too bad. I did feel a bit bad for all of the people having to stand up all around though.

The lectures were all thrillingly dull, leaving me nodding off multiple times. This isn’t really helping my education, leaving me only taking in half of the information. The reason I get so tired, however, is because of the lack of note writing I need to do. Normally I feel tired when the lecturer spends most of the lecture talking about something obvious that I only needed to write one line on. Thus I just have to sit and listen to them reiterate the point several times to fill the time.

I’ve been awake for 20 hours. I just want to get into bed. And thus, that is what I am going to do now. Have a good weekend, ladies and gents!

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

Day 458: The 27th of October

Well, today wasn’t bad. It pales in comparison to the joy that is tomorrow, of course.

 

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I was actually fairly talkative today. That is quite the rarity.

So I don’t have to go in until reasonably late on Thursdays and I stay in university until 6 PM. That makes the day moderate to good, as opposed to my days when I get to come home earlier. I always rate early finishes higher than late starts, if only because it means I don’t have to take the rush hour train.

I spoke to a number of interesting characters today. A girl I have only briefly interacted with spoke to me in the lecture today and we had a nice little chat. I feel a lot more normal when other people actually go out of their way to interact with me, so that was nice.

It wasn’t a particularly thrilling day. Then again, Thursdays never are. I was out all day learning of the intricate nuances of the law, so I don’t have much to discuss. Instead I shall go to bed, considering I have 5 hours until I have to get up now. Honestly, this is going to be as painful as ever.

I am seriously considering going down to the coffee machine earlier than I have to get up, just to wake up and hopefully be in a better place to avoid falling asleep in lectures, as I am wont to do when I go in on less than optimal amounts of sleep. I doubt that half an hour less will make all that much difference and a coffee and a bowl of cereal could go a long way to making me feel better throughout the day.

So, yes. I shall try to survive and stay positive tomorrow. We shall see how it goes. As for you all, have a great Friday! The weekend is closing in fast!

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

 

Day 457: The 26th of October

Well, today was a relaxing day. I am learning to love Wednesdays in this world of three day weeks.

 

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I was probably meant to do more work than I did though.

So, I was planning on doing next week’s tutorials today. In fact, I did some of the reading for next week’s Policing tutorial. The only problem is that it is on content that is coming up in the next lecture. Of course, doing the reading gave me an obvious head start on the topic, so that could be useful, but it does make answering the questions correctly more of a challenge.

The other thing I spent time doing today was formatting and starting to develop my CV. This is something I have to ensure I actually get around to, so I can start applying for my placement year. However, I feel like I have a couple of very busy weeks ahead. I shall just have to find time in between the other stuff.

Tomorrow I shall probably take one of my Policing books with me to read on the train. Hopefully I can get a pretty good understanding of the tutorial and thus get it done tomorrow evening. That is the theory, anyway.

Other than that, today has been a relatively peaceful day. My mother has had a cold for the past few days and has lost her voice, I spent the day in my room, playing Overwatch and generally pissing about. All in all it was pretty great.

Anyway, I am going to sleep now. Busy day again tomorrow. Have a great Thursday everyone!

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

Day 456: The 25th of October

Today was actually above average. There was a lot of work I did, but all in all it wasn’t too bad.

 

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So I did more than 5 hours of reading today. Just sitting and concentrating for so long. I was making notes at the same time though.

The tutorials today were fairly easy. I had the answers, so I wasn’t worried about being picked on and it only actually happened once. Other than that I just listened to other people’s answers and breezed through it.

On the other hand, I spent a long time reading the huge article for Public law this Friday. That took up most of my day. I read the textbook chapter I needed to read for the tutorial on the train, then started the article and read it for 2 hours, then read a second article for about an hour and a half before I started answering the questions for the tutorial.

It was a lot of work, but it did leave me feeling pretty fulfilled. I feel like I have actually done something right for a change, which is nice. It will be nice to be able to be a little more laid back with my work tomorrow, where I shall start getting ahead with next week’s tutorial work.

At this stage I think I shall get into bed though. I don’t feel like doing much more this evening and a relatively early night wouldn’t be a terrible idea. Have a great Wednesday everyone!

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

Day 455: The 24th of October

Today was weird. I mean, I got two tutorials out of the way, but it was just a strangely empty day overall.

 

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Not only was this what I was doing all day, that was also my exact face whilst doing it.

So, I have one more tutorial to prepare for this week, which will most likely be Wednesday’s work. Not only that, but I also want to get ahead with my work and write a CV to start applying for placement jobs for next year. And to top it all, as if this wasn’t a pain in the ass enough, my mother will not let this applying thing go. Let me please just try to get ahead with my actual university work before I bother worrying about this shit.

Honestly, it just stresses me out. I will get what I need to get done finished and hounding me over it is just going to slow me down. I have enough trouble just trying to get the mental energy together to sit down and prepare for my tutorials. Just… please.

Anyway, tomorrow I will be in university all day, as per usual, so I might take a book to do some reading towards my Friday tutorial. If I get the reading done I might be able to spend Wednesday doing something more productive with my life.

The thing is, I do love learning law. I do love reading the case decisions and judgments and learning the practical elements. But it seems like the lecturers are doing everything in their power to make me hate this subject. I just want to be taught the simple law. I don’t need a history lesson for an hour on William the Conqueror or any of this other bullshit! Plus, they seem to love reiterating the same point over and over again without actually telling us any of the practical stuff we will need for the exam.

I know university is about learning the wider knowledge about your subject of choice, but if that is the case why do they boil it down to a 2 hour exam per module and bombard you with reading that they know you won’t do anyway? Why have tutorials where I sit and learn nothing where I could have spent that time reading around the subject myself?

I swear, if they just gave us a list of reading and didn’t have tutorials, I would do so much more work for this course. If they just gave us the chance to do our own thinking, like they say they want us to, without having to babysit our knowledge through compulsory classes! You could still go and talk to people if you were having trouble with the work, in their office hours or whatnot! But the people who prefer to just learn by themselves without having to endure hours of social anxiety every day would have life so much easier! I would have so much more time, without needing to catch the late train home every night.

I know this rant means nothing. The system isn’t going to change, and I am still going to stick to doing a limited amount of work because I just don’t have the time or energy to bother doing any more. It’s all well and good saying to do 7 hours of reading per module per week, and I am sure that some people manage it. I just don’t know how they keep any of that knowledge in their skulls.

Anyway, I am not saying anything of worth here and I am just making myself depressed. I shall go to bed instead. Have a good Tuesday everyone.

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

 

Day 454: The 23rd of October

Today was weird. And not the good kind of weird.

 

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I’ve been kind of irrationally angry all day. I think it was a mixture of being hungry and not being able to watch my shows yet.

So I did eventually get to see the MLP season 6 finale today. It took a while and I eventually just downloaded them onto my PC to avoid the terrible lag I was getting whilst streaming. All in all, it was a pretty great finale too. I definitely enjoyed it.

Other than that, I was meant to finish two tutorials today, but in the end I just could not concentrate. After finishing the preparation for one of them I was just worn out and annoyed, and I pretty much stayed like that for the rest of the day. It might also be due to how hard I was finding trying to understand my law work.

I did get a nice roast dinner tonight though, so that slightly improved my mood. I’m still a bit low though. I have a lot of work to do tomorrow to make up for my lack of progress today. I don’t want to be in the same terrible mental state I was in last year when the work was just too much.

It has just been one of those days. A day where you feel shitty throughout. Then again, that is pretty much what Sundays are made for. The long, dark teatime of the soul, they say.

To make the day just a little bit worse, Grey cat also decided to bring me another vole this morning. So that was fun to wake up to. I could definitely do without the corpses waking me up in the morning.

Anyway, I am going to sleep. I am starting to get a headache and I really feel like this day is just a bad job at this point. Maybe tomorrow will be better. Have a good Monday, everyone!

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

Day 453: The 22nd of October

The weekend! You have got to love it!

 

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I totally rocked being healer today. Probably my best day of playing in some time.

So, mainly I spent today asleep. The period of time where I was not asleep, however, I spent talking to Emma and Ben, playing Overwatch and gazing longingly at YouTube waiting for some of my shows to update. Turns out there have been a lot of problems with getting new episodes out today, so I will have to wait.

It is annoying though. I wish I could be watching these new episodes (admittedly I could be if I wanted to throw money around) but I shall have to wait for tomorrow at least. I guess it gives me some to look forward to.

One thing I do know is that I have definitely got my money’s worth with Overwatch. With new skins, updates and ranked mode, I still have lots of things to be doing on it and it is still great fun, so long as you get a decent team. I may be stuck around 2000 Skill Rating at the moment, but I feel like I can claw my way out of there eventually, despite me bobbing up and down from about 1950 to 2030 Skill Rating between every night of games.

Anyway, I am going to head to bed. It is one of humanity’s great time-machines, sleep, and so I shall be indulging in it myself. Have a great Sunday everyone!

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.

 

Day 452: The 21st of October

I have been awake for too many hours. I think I am going to crash soon.

 

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How I felt waking up this morning at 5 AM.

So I have been up for 19 hours so far today. It has been a long one. I almost fell asleep in both of my lectures, as is my wont on Fridays, and I nearly dozed off on the train on my way home. Thankfully I survived the day and the weekend awaits!

I spoke to lots of people from university who I don’t normally interact with today. It was an interesting experience, I felt a little bit more normal than usual despite having very little to say myself. I was content enough to listen to their anecdotes.

I also came back all the way to Clapham Junction with a girl from my classes, who is commuting from London this year. We sat together in what I would consider companionable silence, though at this point I don’t much care if it was awkward or not.

When I got home I stole some delicious food that Emma made and chatted a bit with Ben and the like before they headed off. I’m not on the top of my game, to be honest. It is a bit hard to be when you feel out of it.

I’m going to hop into bed now. I don’t even know what to do tonight. Have a great weekend guys!

Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.