I think I need to do some thinking tomorrow. Just chill out and try to relax for a little bit. I have been on edge for a few days now and it is not doing me any favours. Just need to start thinking positively again, as far as I can.
It is hard though, especially when you find some sick joy in wallowing in self pity for a while. You have to push through that and realise that despite the temporary sense of fulfilment that gives you, it isn’t really a good thing for you or anyone else.
I think it took someone else telling me that I was most likely just experiencing anxiety for me to snap out of it. I should be on the way back to a reasonable mental state after that. We can do it.
Elliott Rogers, novice blog writer extraordinaire.